Song.

So I was listening to a cd I got the other day, and just thinking about how awesome my day was on Wednesday, and all the sudden,this song caught my attention...
You Can Have Me- Sidewalk Prophets
If I saw You on the street
And You said come and follow me
But I had to give up everything
All I once held dear and all of my dreams
Would I love You enough to let go
Or would my love run dry
When You asked for my life
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me
If You’re all You claim to be
Then I’m not losing anything
So I will crawl upon my knees
Just to know the joy of suffering
I will love You enough to let go
Lord, I give you my life
I give you my life
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me
I want to be where You are
I’m running into Your arms
And I will never look back
So Jesus, here is my heart
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me
When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
My Father, my love
You can have me

One line imparticular stood out to me. "If You’re all You claim to be. Then I’m not losing anything. So I will crawl upon my knees. Just to know the joy of suffering." Hard line, very hard line. I've got to believe this. I need to lose sooo much more of me to find more Jesus. More of Jesus, less of me. I can do this. Please, please, keep me acountable.
Well, thats all I got for today, Im off to lifegroup!
~Believer in Pruple Rain and Talking Cows

siblings

Did I mention I have a brother? His name is Zach. His sixteen; has blue eyes and when he has hair, it's a medium shade of brown, and it's super curly. Both my brother and I got the recessive gene there; curly hair, blue eyes, and left handed. But anyways, I don't think I ever mentioned how lucky I am to have him as my brother? We're 15 months apart, and the only two children in our family. But, I'm simply amazed God gave him to me. Don't get me wrong, we're normal siblings, and we argue sometimes, but still, not a lot. My brother is a musical genius. He plays violin, guitar, and saxophone. He is extremely good at all of them! He's also a Christan. And recently his best friend/girlfriend, was diagnosed with cancer. Karly is her name. She has a rare genetic disorder called doc8. She been in Maryland for...at least a month, maybe longer, I can't remember. Anyways, she is pretty sick. If you want to read about it more check out there blog, that they write about them all.
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So, can you guess that his faith was tested? Even though, I know he had some hard times, he isn't mad at God. He loves God with his heart. I simply find it amazing. That's what I was thinking about as I saw his just simply worshiping God. His God, is my God. So, my belief is that I can do that too, more of I need to do that too. You've probley read my last blog entry. I was kinda mad/sad during that. But who am I to speak? my brothers girlfriend is sick! Those are just two of my best friends, and I'm starting to find the good coming out of that. I'm learning, lots. So God's got a plan for this. I think I'm beginning to see that, it just took a while. Now don't get me wrong, I still have a hard time with some stuff, but God's got it. Until now, I don't think I would have ever had the faith to say that, but I'm learning. So thank you Zach, I love you.
Here is a pic of my brother (he has the K) and some of the guys in our lifegroup. Can I even say how proud I am?

Shout out to my BFF Katie, I LOVE you girl, thanks for always being there, I owe you lots, and I'm so glad we're so much closer! Thanks to God that we are so much closer.
~Believer in Purple Rain and Talking Cows.

Christan School Kids.

My goodness, Christan school kids can be brutal, very brutal. It's sad to be able to say that. But hey, I am a Christan school kid so I do believe I have a right to it. I'm not saying everyone is, just some are. I'm not gonna lie, it ticks me off. Aren't we supposed to be showing the love of Christ?? We sure aren't going to do that by acting like we are now. I know everyone can just joke around sometimes, but has anyone ever realized that sometimes it goes way. to. far. I know it could be worse in a public school, but honestly. I really do think that sometimes it's just as bad in a Christian school as it is in a public school. We seem to not like to be able to accept people. we have to form them into how we want them to be, or they are just an outcast. So in conclusion, if you have a fear or rejection-don't come to my school. But on the upside, I love alot of the teachers in my school, they're super nice! Shout out to Mr.Frick here, you're my favorite :D And you have some people who are really serious about following God, and doing all that they can to help other people get close to Him. Then their are the hypocrites, who one second they're so nice and accepting-they say the love God. But sometimes that just gets turned around, depending on the circumstances. But as I said, keep you're friends who are Christan's really close to you, because they're the ones who will always be leading you closer to God.
I want some gummy bears...
~Believer in Purple Rain and Talking Cows.

More Randomness...

I just read my friends Katie's blog, she had a really good post tonight, not sure if I can top it or not ;) So for starters, Katie gave me a cow lost night, I LOVED it. I named it cat, because they had a cat that was named cow, that they had named for me. If you don't get that, just keep reading it over and over again, you'll get it eventually.
ok, I can't wait anymore to tell you this, I GET TO SPEND THE NIGHT AT TAYLOR U! I am totally FREAKING OUT! I can not, can not, can not wait!!!!! I want to be there right now, soooooo badly! so thank you to my awesomeness youth leaders who are letting us spend the night there, but be prepared...we get a lil hyper ;)
Last nights sermon at 180 was super duper good. Had a pretty fun night. I had some Starbucks, which might have been a little scary. Just maybe, maybe.
Might I say, I LOVE American Idol. I know, I'm crazy. but who knows, I night be there someday, maybe. I don't know...
Did I mention I really find that being left handed, is special. For some reason, the fact that I'm left handed is a really big deal to me. Don't know why, but I really like being left handed.
That's bout it for tonight, for now, my thoughts are with Hatti, for the most part.
~Believer in Purple Rain and Talking Cows.

American Idol

Well, kind of expressionless today, as seems to be normal lately. I am soooo ready for idol tonight!!!! I can NOT wait a whole 1 minutes until it's on, I can do this! but thank you Ellen and Simon for crashing my dreams. Ellen-serious? a new judge? Um, sorry no go for me. Simon- you're leaving next year?? Hmph. I see how it is. Well, I'm waiting for my Dad to get home with some ice cream, that I can eat :D
Oh btw- I've lost 8 1/2 pounds!!!!!!!!!! yipee!!
~Believer in Purple Rain and Talking Cows.
(did I mention I LOVE American Idol?? 1 Minute!!!)

Starbucks. Need I say more?

I had STARBUCKS!!!!!!!!! :D It's a Cinnamon Dulce latte, and it's really really really realy really really yummie. Hyper is one of the best feelings in the whole world!!!Wonder if I try to talk to a cow if I can imagine it talking back. HA! I wish I had a cow...but I have a hippo that I got for Christmas!!! (no joke)
~Believer in Purple Rain and Talking Cows.