I should be doing something else right now...

I need to be doing homework right now, or practicing one of my instruments....hmmmm. Oh well, not like I'm going to :) It's blog time.....
Well, as you know, I have talked to my guy friend. I find it would be easier if I just gave him a nickname. How about Storms? Yeah, ok that works. Well anyways, Storms and I talked. It wasn't pleasant and it was very awkward. I did what I was supposed to do, I told him why and what and everything in between. Nothing happened. He barely responded. Now, if you know Storms, this is NOT like him at all. Even the awkwardness is especially with me. So, it was super awkward seeing him today. More of he tried to avoid me, but didn't do a very good job. I about lost it again last night at church. Again, one of my guy youth pastors was talking to me. He knew that I was down, and he eventually said some stuff to me, and sat by me a Tbell and we exchanged a few words there before I had to leave. Which was nice. As hard as it is to try to get close to a leader, if there was one I trusted the most, it would be him. I'm just scared he might leave sometime just like a past relationship. Not that there wasn't a reason for the last one-it still hurts though.
*sigh* life is hard sometimes...but that's when you learn the most, I guess.
Katie is coming over tomorrow for some birthday shopping together, can you say FUN?!
yes, this is going to work out, but no, not always how I would like it to.
~Believer in PRTC